Twinkle Twinkle Little Star

When I was younger I had a huge issue with sleep. I rarely slept. I don't know if it was the environment I was in, or if it was natural. Over the counter sleeping pills were my friend. As I got older, mixing them with a beer helped. Then I got the "good stuff". I was prescribed sleeping medication.

When I was pregnant I slept all the time! I had no idea that growing a little one inside me would be so exhausting.

Now my sleeping patterns bounce back and forth. I am either always tired, or awake. My mind is still. I am not worried, or stressed. I just cannot sleep. Laying in bed with my eyes closed, concentrating on my breathing. Slow and steady.

Mediation comes second hand to me at these time. My mind actually has nothing in it. Clear. Calm. The waves are steady. The currents are nonexistent, and yet....I am awake.

The one thing I love about living in the country is that I can see the stars. While city lights may be pretty to many, I prefer the wonder of the night sky.

Calm. Cool. Crisp. The wind sweeps over my legs, down my arms. Not exactly the way to get me to close my eyes. Stepping outside only wakens my spirit and body more. While slightly counterproductive it is peaceful.

It's an amazing and overwhelming feeling knowing that everything is connected. The stone thrown into the pond makes ripples that moves the leaf to the other side. The breeze that touches me moves and touches another person.

In this moment of darkness, quiet and calm, all you can do is look at the stars. This is a good moment. A moment of reflection, meditation, and serenity.

No matter what your night time brings, may it always bring you the peace that your mind, heart, and spirit need to start another day. May the breeze calm your spirit, the stars shine down a new light to struggles, and the rising sun in the morning bring hope for new beginnings.