Reanalyze, Rediscover, Recreate

"The aim of life is self-development. To realize one's nature perfectly - that is what each of us is here for." ~ Oscar Wilde

On the way home my children are talking and giggling in the back seat as I am on the phone discussing a friends upcoming job interview. After hanging up I hear from the back seat, "Can I paint Aunt Jan a picture for you to take to her tomorrow?"

My thoughtful little one. It is really amazing to see how little kids go from the rules of a toddler, to being a compassionate, caring, sensitive and thoughtful person in the making.

If you are exposed to children you have the pleasure to watch them develop and grow. Yet, when we reach a certain age it appears our growing stops. In reality our growing, developing and changing never ends. Of course there are those of us that refuse, or do not want to grow and move and change. That inaction causes change, not always progressive change, but change.

It is okay to question who you were, you are, and who you want to be. There is a process in discovering who you are. Reanalyze, rediscover and recreate.

This is not a process that comes natural to everyone. I am in a constant battle with myself when trying to reanalyze how I feel, what I think, what I am learning. Then again, I over think thus I will overanalyze. Thankfully I have an amazing support system that has learned to humor me as I over think, over process, and over analyze.

One of my main goals through therapy right now is to limit my over thinking, and learning to do a little more accepting.

It's natural to get comfortable, stay in a rut or a place of content. I want to start to do better. Fine tune my patience, learn to bite my tongue, and find ways to be a more encouraging person. I want to make sure that I spend time letting those I know that I love and care for them that I do.

So little by little I have started a set of goals. We will see how well I do and how I handle the obstacle. You cannot move a mountain, you can however move one stone at a time to build a tunnel for the train to go through. I am going to start designing my tunnel.