Momma's Lost Her Magic

My daughter has stayed yet another night at her Nana's house. I did not pressure her to come home last night or tonight, her cousins are in town and it is good for her to spend time with them. I still miss having her here though.

Tonight, I arrived around 6:30, after working late and having a very stressful day at work, and was greeted with smiles from my loving boy whom is partaking in one of his favorite activities, eating. Happy boy. Once done he smiles at me and gives me a hug and snuggles right next to my neck. This one is almost always happy to see me, he is yet to the age where mom is no longer magical.

My daughter is no where to be found, I ask knowingly, if she is downstairs and was told yes she is. I place my little man on the floor and watch him run towards the living room jabbering at the bird. I make my way down the steps slow, heavy steps. The day has left so much upon me that I feel like I can barely move.

I hear the kids talking, the television going, and Rick saying something to one of the kids. I barely turn through the door and I am glanced at by each of the children, each one smiling as the glance back to the television. My daughter is sitting on her uncle's lap and I smile at her, waiting for the fight to begin. See, she is at that age where mom is no longer magical.

Rick says lets go upstairs and get your shoes on, and off she bounces from his lap and leaps toward me grabbing my hand. I didn't even have candy to bribe her with. She is talking nonstop about her day and what her cousins said or did. We make it up the stairs and I begin to hear about the new little one at daycare picking on her, I reply with the usual did you pick on him first? Which abruptly ends the conversation, and my mother in law smiling.

I am hopeful and yet surprised at this point, she is coming home! That is when it happens, she runs toward her Nanna and says I dont want to leave. I want Nanna. I don't fight it, her cousins are here.

I give my daughter a kiss, and feeling defeated turn to my boy and pick him up, and he nuzzles his head against me. As I begin to walk toward the door I hear, "Wait mom you forgot something," I turn around and ask her what it is I had forgotten, "your kiss and hug."

I guess I had forgotten so many things that it took her a good ten minutes to make sure I had everything. With one final hug and kiss goodbye she walks me to the door and says, "I will always be in your heart." i smile and go to bend down to give her a kiss, and that is when the door begins to shut in my face.

Maybe momma has not lost her magic after all, perhaps little girl is just trying to find her own. :)