St. Patrick

I purchased a token while in Northern Ireland, in 2004 or 2005? I have had a habit a carrying it around with me the past few weeks. Now, those who know me are probably wondering, what is she doing carrying around a religious token?

No, there is no spot for organized religion in my beliefs, not by the textbook anyhow. That said I find organized religions fascinating, Hinduism, Christianity, Judaism, Buddhism, etc...they are remarkable to me. The strong beliefs that people have, the pure faith.

The envelope that this token came in has this printed on it, "As I live each day, may I do my part to make one difference, to touch one heart and through each day may it be my goal to encourage one mind and inspire one soul."

That is an amazing concept, one I have always hoped I am able to follow through with. Unfortunately I think it is more for a selfish reason though. It is my way of saying, hey I am here and I am contributing.

I am not sure if any good deed is truly done for pure good. Good deeds are done for the satisfaction of doing something good. Passing it on so to speak. Many of us feel it improves our Karma, while others say it is the Lord's word we must follow. I don't think there is anything pure in this world, at least no action.

I have become more open of my mental muddle, especially to those whom I feel may share the same mess. I truly do want them to know they are not alone, but deep down I think I just want to make sure I know I am not alone.

So St. Patrick, guide me through my day, give me inner peace and strength. Allow me to feel how I am connected not only with another being, but the Earth that grows beneath my feet, the wind that hugs me when I am lost, the moon that smiles down upon with her glow, trying to light my way. The crickets singing, a song I cannot understand, the soft trampling I hear of grass and weeds from animals in my yard at night.

This energy, this connection, is a circle, no end, no beginning, just a continual movement from one form to another. Help those who have lost this connection become reacquainted. Help clear the muddy mess I call my mind.