Perception

"We don't see things as they are, we see them as we are." ~ Anais Nin

After every few moments of turning the knob, the water grows from warm to hot. I finally sit naked, vulnerable on the shower floor. My knees folded to my chest, pressed against my breasts. Neck bent, hair stuck to my face. I can feel the water gathering and moving down to my chin and draining off.

As the heat is turning my skin bright pink I hope the water is washing away the delusion I had been holding onto.

There are few things as hard to take than the realization the world you have built is not entirely true. Perception is a tricky concept.

Tonight I began to wonder, this intuitive knowledge had begun to sweep over me. Then I had to ask. The answer of course proved my instincts correct. Almost instantly my gut wrenched, my body closed. My perception of my world has changed.

So in the shower I sat, washing away the old so I could therefore live in the more real, accurate world. Like any change or realization that transforms how you see things it is not easy to take in. Take in I must.

Skin warm and pink I turn off the shower and dry off. Ready to begin living in this new vision. Adaptation is essential to survival. Survival is the key to living.

We should always be willing to learn new things. Allow ourselves to grow and change. To appreciate what we have. It is out of desire and disappointment that we suffer. We must acknowledge, accept, appreciate, and adapt.

This process will change that evil necessity to label things as either good or bad to just is. It is the just is we live in, and it is the just is we learn from.

So here is to our perceptions, the reality behind them, and the growing we must acheive to be better people.

"To begin with, our perception of the world is deformed, incomplete. Then our memory is selective. Finally, writting transforms." ~Claude Simon