Alliteration

This past week I have had two people point out to me that when listing a group of words that I feel best describes me or how I feel about myself at that point in time I tend to do so using alliteration.

Examples:

Prohibited, pathetic, poignant
Ignorant, insignificant, isolated, infinitesimal
Dismal, disastrous, depressed, desolate

In reading through my list I also find that I am using obviously negative adjectives. Through the process of relearning how to think, I believe I need to do a small word exercise to change that perspective perhaps. Here is my small attempt at positive alliteration.

Productive, Painter, Parent, Pleasant, Placid
Imaginative, Inspired, Intuitive
Diligent, Different, Desiree

While my list my not be correct and true all the time, I am still these things. The last of them being Desiree, me. I have been rereading some of my blogs tonight with a couple of friends. Humor is among my writings of struggle. Compassion is apparent. I am in there, somewhere. I will find me yet. Freedom to be myself or find out who that is appears to be the key. This is a reoccurring thought in my writings, and through the voices of two friends. Two people I would like to add, that I would not be speaking with  if it weren't for my downfall and struggles. My murky waters do bring clarity at times. The key is to hold on to that clarity and embrace it.

My home is in a process of becoming my sanctuary. Slow and steady, I will emerge. My house will be organized and represent me. Maybe through that representation I will figure out who that is.

"I think you have to  know who you are. Get to know the monster that lives in your soul, dive deep into your soul and explore it." ~ Tori Amos

This fairy remembers she has wings, but the use of them is still a mystery.