Bodhichitta

“Bodhichitta - Our “mind of love” is the deep wish to cultivate understanding in ourselves in order to bring happiness to many beings. It is the motivating force for the practice of mindful living. With bodhichitta at the foundation of our thinking, everything we do or say will help others be liberated. Right Thinking also gives rise to Right Diligence.” The Heart of the Buddha’s Teaching, Thich Nhat Hanh

I am learning on how to not destroy myself with the mindless and endless cycle of ill thoughts. Each step is small in my healing process, but meaningful.

Today Nathan took me to the park and we walked along the paths among the trees and water. Yes Southwest Kansas has both! Not many...but some. 

A great day to be outside. The slight breeze brushing upon my skin. While sitting on a bench in front of the small man made pond I closed my eyes and could hear the ducks playing in the water. The small amount of leaves rustling above in the branches. Children playing in the park nearby. Cellphones ringing, shoes beating the ground.

A small spider wanted to take refuge under my shoe. 

Just like the complexity of the way all of these pieces of life work, I am slowly understanding the complexity of myself. Piece by piece it will be put together. Leaving a picture whole and amazing. As each of us truly are.

I did something today I rarely do. Handed over my camera to Nathan. So now I have some pictures of me, just enjoying nature. Myself and Chico. Nathan did a great job and I am treasuring the pictures he took. 

Part of the understanding of my inner self is being able to view my outer self. I can find beauty in so many things, myself is rarely one of them. 

While walking along the path there was this amazing tree with thorns on the outside. Beauty at its best in nature. Sharp thorns, hard under my fingers. These I found to be fascinating. I have a slight fascination with barb wire and this was natures barb wire to me.

We have spent a large amount of time outside the past couple of days. The inner strength from within is stronger than it has in the past. Sunshine and breezes have made me feel refreshed. The kids love it of course. A small garden will do us all wonders. Now if only I can keep something alive in it!

The wheat across the way is growing. I have watched as the tractor has plowed the field behind my home preparing it be planted. Before I know it my beloved corn fields will be here.